The Paralysis of the Paradox

Does anyone know how it feels to be ripped apart?
To know that what you want is not what you need?
And to know that what you need is not what you want?

To be torn between the here and now
And the promise of what is to come?

Do you know what it is like to sit paralyzed
Unwilling to choose what you know is wrong
But unable to take the leap towards what is right?

Do you know what it feels like to lay awake at night
Hearing your heart and mind clearly
But knowing they are untrustworthy?

Have you heard the whisper in your ear
Saying "Trust in Me, I know it hurts,
But this, too, shall pass"?

Have you entered a fight
That you know you can't win
But have the victory guaranteed?

Did you taste the goodness of faithfulness
And see the fulfillment of promises
Only to become dissatisfied again?

Did you pray to the Almighty
Telling yourself He is great
But believing He would do nothing?

Did you resign yourself to a life of disappointment
And believe you are too great a failure to be used?

Did you place God Himself in a box
Defined by your own expectations
And assume He would stay put?

Have you feared the rejection of men
And kept the story He is writing to yourself
When Christ died willingly to save you?

Have you been paralyzed
By the paradox that is created
When the battle rages for your soul?

Matthew 11:28 - "Come to Me all you labor and heavy laden, and I will give you rest."

Fight on, my brother and sister, do not give up! You are not alone. Hold on for one more moment, one more hour, one more day. Put one foot forward and move. Pray one more time. Read one more promise. Believe that at the moment when you have nothing left, you will be rescued. I promise you, that as I answered "yes" to every question in investigating the distress of my own heart tonight and the Spirit comforted and calmed me, He will be faithful to you as well. He will wrap His loving arms around you and allow you to rest safely there, His steady heartbeat a constant reminder of His love for you.